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JUmbled Mess That Defines Me  

EroticMusings2 59F  
1438 posts
2/12/2022 3:38 am
JUmbled Mess That Defines Me

Forgive me for this may read very jumbled, because that is what I am at the moment. A big ole jumbly mess it seems.

Feeling very on edge, conflicted even. Monday is my husband's hip replacement surgery, and I am sure he will do fine.But it feels like eternity to get here with his medical needs. My own, still have no real path to getting help. The specialist I need, their practice does not take my insurance, they did last year but this year NO. Imagine my shock. I absolutely need to get some help for my lung problems, edema issues, and the pinched nerves in my neck which now make it almost impossible to do too much.

Daily by the time I get things done as in running a housel, cleaning, cooking, assist my husband of his needs physically, I am pretty spent. I feel overwhelmed, and no one to even turn to get a cup of coffee with or anything. There is no one to comfort me, let me rest my head on their chest, etc.

It is no wonder that I do not feel sexy, I question my sex appeal. I long to feel wanted, cherished, and desired just for being me. I would love to feel that with a friend who would eventually become my lover. Yes there is always that void within my marriage that hasn't been present for so many years. Now even if he tries, you can just tell that he is not into that, which is a huge turn off for me. I do not even wish to go down that path again. And yes he has agreed that I can have a lover, discreetly. Ideally I would have loved to have had that with my spouse but it is far too late.

Oh what a tangled web, but it will sort itself out I hope. I want to feel alive again..

Step by step


*Creative Outlets of All Forms thru Me*

Needsomekisses60 63M

2/12/2022 3:27 pm

Hang in there, it will get better.

Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
2/12/2022 3:35 pm

Best of luck.... seems pretty lame.
But that's all I got. 🤞❗❗❗

69ereatwetpussy 61M
6774 posts
2/12/2022 4:48 pm

good luck with this all

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